I don’t want to ask for much, I want to convey my deepest gratification, and probably ask a little favor too
Years ago, I fooled myself into thinking I could be the greatest entrepreneur, and I took a step to test that myth. I read a lot of stories before I embarked on the journey, trying to understand how other people made it, and the challenges they had to face, and how they overcame them
I must say, they kind of prepared me for what was to come, I thought at least. But when it suddenly happened, it shocked me. It felt like I didn’t know that was a possibility when I started, because then, it was no longer the stories I read, it was no longer the stories of other people, but my story. The pain I had to endure, the pain of watching those I thought had my back choosing themselves, was just too much to accept
We truly lose so much in this journey of life, in search of success. We lose friends, family, lovers, did I mention lovers? I can see the evidence written all over when I look back
I must admit, it hurts when it happens because you just don’t know what to do, how to make them stay, but I don’t wanna dwell on that now
I just wanna say thank you for the strength, for those who came along and became part of my life. They truly made a difference
I have a little favor to ask though. A little more strength to keep going, an ability to maintain discipline, to remain focused, appreciative of life and everything it offers, and a great respect for those who have been walking with me through this journey
Apparently, success transforms you into a whole lot of things you’ve never imagined sometimes. It exposes the inner you, what is buried at the core of your soul, but I pray that I don’t ever feel the need to show off to anyone that I have made it when the sun shines bright in my direction
I pray that I don’t ever feel the need to prove to anyone that they made a mistake or that they did me a favour by leaving. Instead, continue to do the good that I do when the opportunity arises, and more
I pray that I remain humble, focused, and consistent to the cause and never for a day undermine, disrespect, take anything or anyone for granted
Life is tough, really tough for everyone. It seems like everyone is battling their own demons. Some in silence, while others dare to speak about theirs. I pray that I don’t ever forget that, it rings in my ears and flashes in my mind that I was never alone when difficult times were a thing of the day. I pray to have in me the courage to appreciate even those who left, those who chose themselves over the difficulties I put them through chasing all these promising dreams I have
I admit that I get tempted sometimes to pray for my big break to be brought closer for all those who always find time in their busy schedules to notice my awkward lifestyle to realize the results of what I’ve been building all these years
But I pray that I don’t ever feel the need to show them that, yes I was always late, but I was busy building. I pray that I don’t feel the need to show off to each and every one who noticed when I was late, and wondered what happened when I was too early. Those who happened to pass me somewhere taking a power nap in the car, and all those who noticed even the smallest awkward things about me that didn’t align with their standards
I’m weird, difficult to understand, I have a temper, and everything else they find time to describe me with. They’re probably right, but I believe if they knew what’s going on behind the person they see, beyond the surface of what they describe they would be encouraged to join me. But I pray that I don’t ever feel the need to rub it off on their faces. Instead, welcome them, guide them as I always do to those who bother to reach out for anything
If it happens one day that the ideas I failed to sell to other entities get recognition, somebody finds sense in them and makes good use of them. I pray that I don’t find a need to prove to those who rejected them that “your loss” but understand that there’s always a right time for everything. Find it in me to accept that maybe it wasn’t the right time then
I pray that all my disappointments don’t manifest, show up as an ego, disrespect, cruelty towards anything and anyone, but an understanding that it was a journey, everything that happened was part of it, and a good motivation to widen my search net rather than focusing on selected spaces
I pray that ignorance, arrogance, and ego never become a centre of who I am
“It's all about one day at a time, one day at a time”
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