I act like I’m fine, but deep down I want to own a 2 bedroom apartment size office on the 27th floor building that I own with making business related calls the biggest part of my daily job
I want to spend my days sitting on my comfortable chair, spinning it, moving it side to side, making sure every business deal is closed, and everything is done as well as it would when I do it myself
A constant look at my watch will be the only thing that will help me keep track of time because I’ll be so comfortable that each day will pass without noticing 
 
I go on, each day, be it running late, or very early, as I’m never on time, acting like I’m OK, but deep down I just wanna own a very successful and 100% black owned franchise with no ties to them
I just wanna be proud to say, that I started this from the bottom up, with only friends and family’s help, no favours from those who think they can make you and destroy you when your success starts surpassing their expectations. I’m talking about those who get jealous when the spotlight suddenly shifts from them 
 
I pray, I hustle, I learn, I lose and I celebrate the small wins. I support everyone in need, even when it’s merely just a word of advice. I listen to those who just wanna talk, but deep down I wanna do more than just that
I want to push you towards the direction you want to take, I want to help you when you’re in need, I want to be able to demand change and be responsible for its implementation
I want to make a phone call to report a pothole in my neighbour's front yard and two hours later it’s fixed
I want to suggest a good candidate for a ward councillor based on the suggestions passed by those involved on the ground and see that taken seriously. I want to identify a place that needs to be developed and, a few weeks later see the work being done 

I want to identify a business minded individual and groom them to success, I want to sport a talent and actually help them get to  people who will nurture that into something valuable
Because deep down, I know I can do more, I want to do more

I wanna acknowledge that everything else that isn’t contributing towards that isn’t who I am irrespective of how well I do it, it’s just not who I am because deep down I wanna be a free man that do what he wants when he wants to do it

I know I might not get any of that. But I will push, at least I must fail after doing something

“It’s all about one day at a time, one day at a time”

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